Worst mood ever.
June 2013
I just pray to God everyday that something will happen in your life that will cause you to realize that I’m the one, and I have been all along. That’s all.
Iced Tea is definitely the best summer drink.
I look at this picture of us every single day, just so I can see your face.
I was just at one of my friends house and when I was leaving, her little sister asked me to please take her to Taco Bell. During this ride to and back from Taco Bell, somehow my love life came up, and she wanted to know all about it. I just told a 13 year old girl my whole entire love-life story and how I’ve been in love with the same girl from the very first time I laid my eyes on her. And that isn’t an exaggerated statement. I knew right away, that I did in fact love this girl. And the fact that she is still the one I love and feel this way about proves that true. I told her everything that happened to and between us. I told her everything that I did for this girl and how happy she made me feel. I paused in frustration an endless amount of times, while I looked for the non-existent words to describe this amazing feeling that this girl made me feel. It was impossible to explain to the full extent, because nobody will ever know the happiness that this girl made my heart feel. Even from her effortless company. Just being around her was enough to send my heart racing to the moon and back. When we got back to her house, we sat in their driveway and continued to talk about me and this girl. She asked a lot of questions, and some I just simply did not have the answers for. But some I did. I admitted to her the things that I did wrong between me and this girl, and how some of the decisions I made in the past were the worst decisions of my life and haunt me everyday. And I also defended this girl even after I just described how heart broken I was because of what me and her have become, and everything that has happened to us. I told her that this girl is one of the nicest girls I’ve ever met in my life. She asked me if the girl was pretty and I told her that she was the prettiest girl that I have ever seen in my life, even to this day. Then I ran out of things to say, and ended my story with “I don’t know…I just don’t know what to do anymore…like, I just don’t know…” Then my friends little 13 year old sister asked me if I still loved the girl, to which I replied with a yes. Then she told me that if I still love her then I should never give up on her. I replied “I know…I know…” The second one in a quieter voice with a helpless tone of sadness. Then me and my friend’s little 13 year old sister said goodbye to one another and I told her I would see her tomorrow. A 13 year old told me that if I really love this girl, then I should never give up, and it meant more to me than she or anyone else would ever probably understand.
Please don’t tell me that’s about me…
I would love to spend rainy days like this with you. Especially a storm like this. What’s better than knowing that you’re completely, absolutely stuck in one place with the person you love more than anything in this world?
I hate seeing people lose on game shows lol. First off its mad embarrassing, and second off it just sucks to see someone so sad and disappointed lol.
I just want to text you and tell you “Goodnight, beautiful. Sleep tight, don’t let the bed bugs bite. I love you. Mwah.” And my favorite part would be telling you I love you.
